Today, I am eight days past transfer and I do not feel any symptoms other than they usual ones taking Delestrogen and Progesterone cause. I do not “feel” pregnant and fear that this cycle is a bust. I know that “technically” I am only six days past blast stage, but I just do not feel like this cycle took. I remember when I got pregnant after my first cycle, I was having trouble breathing, was extremely sleepy, and I also remember having extremely sore breasts.
I try to look at every little thing as a symptom, but I honestly feel like my period is days away. That weird body / pms feeling you get a week before your period starts.. that is how I feel.
As positive as I try to remain, I lose hope every time I read a post about how another who had a transfer around the same time as mine are already testing and getting BFPs and are exhibiting symptoms. I have none. I am finding myself getting in a rut and becoming more and more depressed.
Now I will be left with the task of figuring out what, if anything to do next. I felt that with donor eggs, I had my best chance at getting pregnant. I was a bit dismayed that there was slight fragmentation with the donors eggs, yet I never had any fragmentation. I was secretly heartbroken when I only ended up with three embies out of that batch of eggs, which meant I had none left over to try again and all that money out of the window.
With my move to LA, I will have to save up to do another cycle, unless I find donor embryos and pay my clinic for storage and $1500 per transfer. I would have to talk to my RE about how that would work. I also was looking into San Diego Fertility as well, as they have donor embryos already and charge $10k for a three cycle guarantee. After those three cycles, if you are not pregnant, then your can either get three more tries with no guarantee or get your money back. I would have to wait until the end of the year to set aside enough to cover this plus meds. The only good thing is, I would not have to pay to travel.
Right now, my mind is just full of thoughts and I simply can not concentrate. I am exhausted mentally and just want to crawl into a little hole and hibernate…