My Mom Was Hospitalized AGAIN ! – The 411

After my mom’s month long hospitalization in March, I set up appointments with a renowned Cardiologist and a top Pulmonologist to follow up on the organ failure and ARDS to make sure she is recovering properly.

It has been a difficult few months and extremely stressful because my mom has not been herself.  The recent illness has exacerbated the PTSD she had from undergoing cancer treatment and facing mortality.

She has been having extreme mood swings and lashing out.  On one hand she is glad to be alive but she is also understandably angry and bitter because of her health situation, which with time will improve.

The Cardiologist ran tests and discovered that ejection fraction had declined since she left the hospital by 5-10%.  Normal is 60%.  In the hospital, it dropped to 25% and inproved to 45% by the time she was discharged.

Because of the pneumonia, ards and sepsis, that illness is the ONLY reason they discovered that her heart was was weak and had sustained damage over the years due to diabetes and cholestorol and hypertension.  Her EKGs always showed normal.  The echocardiogram was repeated and the doctor suspected that there was blockage.

They found 90% blockage in the main heart artery (the widow maker). The Cardiologist put a stint in and said she will be fine now.  Those “indigestion” pains she was been having (self diagnosis) turned out to be symptoms of the blockage that would have led to a massive heart attack in the very near future, BUT GOD !


Leaving the hospital

My mom is at home now and is resting comfortably.

Please keep her in your prayers that she heals properly and quickly and that her mental status levels off too.  Depression is not good and nor is PTSD.  It does not help that she is undergoing radiation therapy for the 3rd occurrence of breast cancer.  She had excision surgery on May 15th and the surgeon had to do it under twilight sedation because of risk of putting her to sleep.  She has three more weeks of radiation and then she starts a new medication protocol in lieu of chemotherapy.

What a way to live after retirement ….

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Twenty-Seven Weeks Old – The 411

My little angel is now 27 weeks old.  For the past 19 days, I have been at the hospital by my mom’s side for at least twelve hours a day.  I feel so torn because I miss my baby when I am not with her, but she is bonding with my sisters and her cousins while I am at the hospital. 

Our mom is doing a lot better.  She had ARDS (which has less than a 50% survival rate), severe pneumonia and sepsis.  She is still healing from the pneumonia and they are trying to clear fluid from her lungs.  She will likely have to go to Acute Rehabilitation once she is released from the hospital because she is very weak.  This comes from being couped up in an ICU bed and sedated.  

We are very blessed that she is pulling through this and will rebound.

Her hospitlization is putting a hold on my baby’s modeling and acting career.   She was booked by Gerber and called in for a casting for Lamaza Baby, but I am hesistant to travel away from the DC area in fear that I will be summoned to the hospital for an emergency like the other morning when we had to drive in an ice storm because she was in distress.  

I have to go to the beach as well to pack up our things and get the to storage before the end of the month.   I will be awaiting September to go back !  We will be going back a month earlier this year since we missed two months this season.

Please continue to lift our mother in your thoughts and prayers …

Twenty-Five Weeks – The 411

Today my daughter is 25 weeks old and it is bittersweet that her grandmother and look alike is on life support and not even aware of her today.

My heart breaks at the thought that one day, my mother will no longer be here with us.  No one ever thinks of their loved ones leaving here.  I stand firm in faith that this is NOT that appointed time.  God is a healer and I declare and decree that our mother will rebound completely from this illness to awake and kick cancers ass one last time !  God can do what no man can do and He will divinely bring her through this healed.  

I look at my daughter and I want so much for her to grow up learning from and hanging out with her Grandmom.  My mother adores her and after all I went through to have this child, I deserve to have my mother around to watch her grow… come to her recitals… tag along to castings… vacation with.

I refuse to believe that God would be that cruel and only allow my mother to meet my child.  She needs to be here to watch her grow up and impart her wisdom to.

Ephesians 3:20~

Prayers For Our Mother -The 411

There are no words in any language which could adequately describe the sheer horror you witness when you are kicked out of your mother’s ICU room and told they are putting her on life support. 
After my mom had a CT Scan and Bone scan to rule out metastatic cancer, the dye made her ill.  She was already coming down with cold type symptoms that she got from my niece.   By yesterday morning, my mom did not look well, was not feeling well and was weak and coughing.   She said her chest hurt so my sister felt it best to have us take her to the ER because it seemed more like pneumonia than a cold.  My sister, T took her to the hospital nearest her home and they discovered that our mom did in fact have pneumonia and her right lung was partially collapsed. 

They admitted her.  This morning, I got my baby settled and I went to the hospital to sit with our mom and talk to the doctors and she said she didn’t feel any better and her chest and back hurt.  I called the nurse to change her pain meds.  While there, the attending came in and explained what was going on and that the infection was now in both lungs. The infectious disease doctor and pulmonary doctor came in and because she was in septic shock, they wanted her on life support to prevent her heart from being taxed. 

I was rushed out of her room after I told them to be sure to use a scope when intubating to prevent her stomach pouch from being perferated.  She had gastric bypass in 2005.

The docs had to put in a central line and an arterial line to administer fluids, three different antibiotics, two blood pressure medications etc.

I signed consents and also talked to the kidney specialist they called in because her kidneys shut down.  

I have never ever been more horrified in my life.  I called on everyone I know to pray.

The devil is a liar and I know that God is healer.  I have chosen to walk in faith and declare and decree Ephesians 3:20 over our lives. 

God will do exceedingly, abundantly above all that I ask or think. Because I honor Him, His blessings will chase me down and overtake me.  I will be in the right place at the right time.  People will go out of their way to be good to me.  I walk in God’s favor.  This is my declaration. AMEN.

I start my day with this affirmation daily.   I find comfort in it.  

God can do this and He is in control.  He will send divine knowledge, skill and instruction to every medical professsional responsible for our mom’s care.  She will be healed !

The CT scan and bone scan showed NO evidence of the cancer spreading.  It is just in the breast.  Thank God !  If she can kick cancers butt twice already, she can beat pneumonia.

I ask that you stand in agreement with me and lift my mother in your thoughts and prayers. 

Twenty-four Weeks Old – The 411

My baby is now 24 weeks old.  She weighs 16 pounds and is 25 1/2 inches long.  

She is growing by leaps and bounds and is now eating and demanding solid food.  She loves fruit and so far enjoys sweet potatoes, and carrots.  She was not a fan of peas.   I am going to make sweet potatoes and spinach and see how that goes. 

We have been in NYC for a week now.  The baby had an audition last weekend for Carter’s.  Her agency called to say Carter’s requested her for an audition.  We flew to NY, which was her first flight, and she did well on the flight.  Her ears popped and she didn’t care for it much, but did well otherwise.  She slept the majority of the flight and slept in the limos to and from.

We flew back to the beach and on Monday night, the production team called to request her for a fitting so we told them we could be there on Wednesday morning.

We drove from the condo, stopping for an hour or so in DC at my sister’s and then got on the road to NY.  We got in that night before midnight and rested up.   The baby had a fitting at 11 am in midtown the next morning.   After the fitting, we did not get a call until yesterday, telling us that the company was putting us up in a hotel for the night in the Hamptons so that the baby could be well rested for the shoot Sunday morning.  We drove the 3 hour trip to the Hamptons, checked in and the hotel is fabulous. We were placed in a 1 bedroom, condo-like suite complete with two full baths, kitchen, den with pull out sofa, and a king bed in the bedroom.   

They are really giving these babies the first class treatment.  

This is a welcome distraction given that my mom’s surgeon called yesterday with news that her biopsy came back positive for breast cancer AGAIN.  THIRD time !  Really?  

She just finished two rounds of aggressive chemo and 32 or 38 sessions of radiation in June 2015.  Now there is a knot under the breast below where they radiated.  Prayerfully the cancer is contained to that breast and had not spread to anywhere else. 

Needless to say, with all the deaths of late, I am not handling this well.  I am not ready to lose my mother.  She and I are extremely close and I want my baby, her twin, to enjoy Grandmom.  

I welcome your prayers !  

Until later…..  going to try to put little diva back to sleep so that she will not be cranky in the morning.  

Eleven Weeks Post Partum – The 411

It has been 11 weeks since we welcomed Baby Girl into the world !

She is fat, fluffy, and such a delight. She can now hold her head up and keep it in line with her body when  being held upright.   She turns her head to look for me when she hears my voice.  She loves tummy time and at long last she enjoys her bath.

At current, she still averages 3 to 4 ounces of milk at a time. She drinks 14-28 ounces in a given day but on average, she drinks about 22 ounces a day.

The baby is laughing out loud now and coos when you talk to her and flashes the biggest smile.

I am beyond in love with her and am excited to spend Christmas with her.

Mommy News:

I am down 64 pounds since giving birth and will continue to work on my body.  I plan to walk a few miles a day on the beach and continue with a low carb high protein high fat diet.   

The feeling around my incision is starting to come back and it feels weird.

My milk supply has dropped quite a bit since the clogged ducts.  I have pumped only 10 oz the last several days.   I’m not going to stress about it.  She has been sleeping a lot over the past week and has been drinking about 14 oz total so she is still getting more breast milk than organic formula.  We are in DC for the holiday and I will spend more time trying to pump every other hour when we get back to try to get the supply up.   I also started taking the motilium again now that the clogged ducts are gone.

Grandmom News:

My mother is doing well.  Her wound is almost closed now !  Other than nausea, she feels pretty good.

Mom’s Surgery – The 411

My mom’s reconstructive surgery that was basically a revision of the breast reconstruction she had done in December, went well. 

Because of the massive scar tissue due to radiation, one breast was super tight and small and the other was a lot larger and lower in placement.   The skin where they did radiation was akin to cutting through concrete according to her surgeon.  They removed all that scar tissue, did a tummy tuck to get new skin and muscle and reconstructed her boobs.   

Her tummy is so flat now I am jealous !  Lol

Her blood pressure remained stable this time and she was under for a little over 4 hours.

She stayed in the hospital all day and overnight and was able to be released to come home this afternoon.   I ordered a lift chair for her comfort from a local medical supply house and this chair is a godsend !!

Thanks for all the well wishes and prayers !!