Today is stim day 14… I am starting to wonder if we are ever going to get to the end of stims ! I do not feel the “full” feeling I get when my ovaries are about to burst with follicles. I can not wait, actually yes I can, to get to that point. Stimming slow and steady is the best way to get quality eggs so I am being patient.
I have been so stressed out the last few days. One best friend losing her son and grandmom at 10pm the SAME night on Monday, My godmother and mother both undergoing cancer treatment, and my best friend, actor, Gary Anthony Sturgis, has finally gone public with his mother’s stage four cancer diagnosis. He finally got his mom to tell her siblings and now he was talked about it publicly, so I feel heartbroken for him, but at the same time relieved that he will have additional support. Cancer SUCKS rocks ! In the midst of all of this mortality, I am trying to create life. It seems strange.
In better news, my agent and I are submitting the final (although it is really just the beginning phase) mock ups of my reality tv project. I am excited about the possibility of this show about my life, my struggles and the fertility struggle so many women and men face that I get to put a face on, being on national television ! I also know what this exposure can do for my career and other projects I want to launch in the future. I am trusting God to open the right doors to the right people at the right time !
I am so eternally grateful for the opportunity to even be able to take this journey and I would be remiss to not thank God for His faithfulness because there are so many who would not be able to even dream of doing what I have done this past year.
I did my AM injections of Ganirelix, Lovenox, and Neupogen. Tonight, I will inject 175 units of Follistim and 37.5 units of Menopur.
Tomorrow morning, I have another blood draw and sonogram. Prayerfully there will be a little growth in the follicles, but not too much of a leap ! I want all the little ones to grow to the same size as the larger ones so that I have plenty of quality eggs to transfer back next week !
In the mean time, I am working on little gifts for the staff at the clinic. I bough EOS balms and made cute hand tags that say “You Are The BALM!” Thanks !. I also got peanut M&Ms and put hand tags that say ” Thank You For Helping Make My Little Peanut (s) !”. I also had Banana Bakery out of Dallas Texas make medical themed cookies that say thanks on them and they are shipping the cookies to my hotel in Albany to arrive next week and they are already hand wrapped individually.
To keep my mind occupied, I have been making flour with hard white wheat berries and baking and my team and I are working on the launch of Valerie The Pajama Chef, my cooking show. You can pull up my flour escapades on Youtube that I shot with my cellphone LOL. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8jkyWBJWp8
I am headed downstairs to my kitchen now to make mile high buttermilk biscuits ! I am craving them, so I am making them and will go get some molasses 🙂 I know I am supposed to be doing gluten free, but one little biscuit is not gonna hurt much ! With all the hell going on around me, I deserve one little biscuit right? 🙂