IVF 2 Stim Day 10 – The 411

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Today is hopefully my LAST day of injections of all of the IVF meds.  I have a baseline monitoring appointment in the morning and I pray that I am given the instructions to trigger on Saturday night and report to CNY on Monday for my egg retrieval.  I am praying that the trigger does not give me OHSS.  I did not get it last time, but I know every cycle is different, including the amount of pain one experiences, if any. 

My tummy is a bit lumpy and has turn black and blue in places.  I am certain it is in part due to the Lovenox.  Blood thinners tend to make people bruise.

I am sending up prayers that everything goes smoothly and that in a few weeks I will get a BFP with two baby girls 🙂

I will update tomorrow after I get to Niagara Falls.

 

 

IVF 2 Stim Day 9 – The 411

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This morning I went in for my baseline appointment and the scheduler forgot to lock  me in. My appointment was initially scheduled for 7:45 am and I had to be scheduled at 8:30 am.  I decided to walk across to the medical pavilion to the new lab and have my blood work done there instead of going to LabCorp after the baseline. 

My bladder was ridiculously FULL.  Today would have been a good day for Poise Pads !  I emptied my bladder then went to the lab.  I gulped down a bottle of water while I waited.  I went back to women’s imaging center and had my sonograms done.  Today I had 4 follicles on the left and 7 on the right !  Now I have a total of 11 follicles.  I started the process with only 7.  I feel a lot better.  I would be much happier if I had 20 + follicles, but I guess quality is better than quantity.

My facebook timeline has been inundated with negative postings.  Today, a friend of one of my facebook friends went into labor and delivered a stillborn baby which died in utero on the way to the hospital.  A few other ladies posted about how they had 12 follicles and only ended up with ONE egg… and other sad tales of woe.   I am already on edge and scared about this cycle because I was not taking all those supplements nor doing acupuncture since my miscarriage.  I worry about how many eggs I will get and if they are good quality.  Now I am freaking out that come Friday, when I do my next baseline, they will tell me to take more meds and do another baseline on Monday.  I am praying everything is coming along and I will be able to trigger on Saturday and report to CNY on Monday for retrieval.

Please keep me in your prayers.  This is all in God’s hands now…

 

 

IVF 2 Stim Day 8 – The 411

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Okay !  My ovaries feel like someone has injected them with fluid and my abdomen looks like it has been beaten with a yard stick while I slept.  I am tempted to drink Gatorade to help avoid OHSS but fear doing so before retrieval will do some damage since the sodium draws the fluid out of the ovaries..

I have again mastered the task of mixing IVF meds.  It is a piece of cake now.

I just feel so tired and overall kinda depressed.  I feel like I just wanna lay around and watch tv.  I was so miserable at my film premiere.  I just did NOT want to be there.  It was an amazing day, but I was not feeling it.

I go in for a baseline tomorrow morning and will have an idea as to where we are.  I am praying that I do not have to trigger until Saturday night !   Keep me in your prayers.   #jesusbesomerelieftomyovaries

IVF 2 Stim Day 7 – The 411

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Today, I went in for a baseline appointment and was delighted that my follicle count is now up to 10 !!  Now I do not feel as bad.  I just do not want to go through this cycle and end up with just a few embryos, one or none.  That happens far too often with women on the various discussion boards I am on. 

Tonight, I injected my lovenox and then had to run out to drive one of my actors from Boston to the train station and then I came back, iced up, mixed my meds and then injected them.  My tummy is already starting to become bruised in a place or two. 

I am extremely tired and grouchy this cycle.  I was a bit tired the last stim cycle as well, but this time I feel drained beyond reason.

Somehow, I skipped a cycle day and not sure how I missed posting on Wednesday, but anyway, every night I pretty much do the same thing. 

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers that I will not have to trigger until Saturday and will head to Albany on Monday for egg retrieval.  I am trying to find a beach or a nice place to go between ER and ET.   It is pretty boring in Albany.  It reminds me too much of being in the country.  I am not used to visiting Walmart, Target and grocery stores or walking thru a mall as my form of entertainment.  The movie theater there was fun, as there is an IMAX and the shopping was great. This time, there is no need for me to go a shopping spree at Bye Bye Baby.  I will refrain from making any additional purchases until I pass the 25 week mark.  I will also not be telling anyone if I do get pregnant until after I pass the 25 week mark.  I am petrified of getting pregnant and suffering another loss.  All I can do is trust that God will allow me to be in His permissive will as well as His directive will. 

 

 

 

 

IVF 2 Stim Day 6 – The 411

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This evening I did my injections a bit late.  I was at my film premiere and did not want to have to fight through a ton of clothes and mess around and get blood on my white top.  I waited until I got back to my hotel suite and pulled the meds out of the servi-bar fridge and quickly mixed and injected my meds.

The film premiere went really well.  My bestie, Alimi Ballard, of CSI Vegas, who was also a producer on the film, flew in and hosted the premiere.  My cast and production team all looked amazing and we had the most awesome fans and supporters who came out. The DJ was amazing and the press interviewed the cast and production team and a few people from my church, including one of my ministers who was in town from ATL came as well.

I am BEYOND tired !  I am waiting on food delivery to arrive so that I can eat something and go to sleep.  Everyone else is going to a local hot spot for the afterparty.   I need my beauty sleep LOL.

IVF 2 Stims Day 5 – The 411

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Tonight, I, again, could not get the stupid needle to go into my belly. It is like the needle is dull or something.  I iced my tummy and then just let my grandmother, who is a nurse, but also has alzheimers, do the shot. I was PRAYING that she remembered how to stick someone LOL.  She did great and was so proud of herself. 

I mixed up all the meds pretty easily.  I had to pack up all the meds I will need for tomorrow, as I will be doing my shots at the film premiere.  I have drawn up the lupron, and the gonal-f into the insulin syringes and will put them in a cooler bag with ice packs. 

I forgot how very tired I get on these meds.  I am so exhausted I could sleep for days ! I have to get up early in the morning to get my hair curled and wait for FedEx to bring my additional boxes of Gonal-F for next week.  I am having them deliver only two and will call on Tuesday if I need more. I should be okay as long as my stims are done by Friday. 

I am a bit disturbed by my ultrasound today.  I have 5 follicles in my right ovary and only 2 on the left according to the portal report.  I am not sure if there are more that are tiny and they were not accounted for or if that is all I have.  7 follicles will end up being 6-7 eggs which is not enough.  The last time I had 12 and 7 eggs fertilized and 4 made it to five day blasts.  I still have one frozen but I am hoping for at least three blasts to transfer so that I can get this over with.  I am going to call the nurse in the morning and ask for her thoughts.  I have not been doing acupuncture since my miscarriage and called for appointments this week, as it can not hurt.  I also have not been taking all the supplements I took last time like the Co-Q 10 and Inositol on a consistent basis.  I have been so overwhelmed with WHEN and IF my menses would resume.  Now I am officially freaked out !

IVF 2 Stim Day 4 – The 411

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Today is the third day of my stims and I am worn out.  I normally wake up at 4 am and today I woke up and fell back asleep.  I was supposed to do a consult with my RE, Dr. Grossman at 7:30 am and I did not wake up to call him.  I woke up at 9:05 am ! What The WHAT???  I NEVER sleep that long. 

I did get an opportunity to chat with my RE and I decided after the info given me that I DO NOT want to do IVIG.  I did not realize it was a blood product and there is an increased risk of contracting HIV or Hepatitis.  I am NOT willing to take that kind of risk with my life and health over a treatment that is not proven to make a difference. 

He and I agreed to increase the dosage of my intralipid infusion therapy instead. 

Tonight, I mixed my meds while icing the tummy and then I injected the meds with no problem.  I am ridiculously exhausted.  I have GOT to find a source of energy to get me through Saturday.  The film premiere is happening and I am now very excited about it and the cause we are supporting.

Tomorrow I have to be out of the house by 7:30 am to do my first monitoring appointment and blood work.  This time I was told to drink 32oz of water prior to arrival.  I pray I do not pee on the sonogram tech !  I am not good at holding pee LOL.  Please pray my strength (as my great grandmother would say).

IVF 2 Stim Day 3 – The 411

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 Today, I mixed my meds with ease and worked out a schedule for getting them all in and spaced far enough apart that they do not react or cancel each other out.

Yesterday, I tried to inject the meds with the 25 gauge needle and the needle would NOT go in !  I went through FIVE needles then finally just used the insulin ones. Today, I went back to the original game plan and I iced for 20 minutes before trying to inject and it went in with ease and I did not feel it.

I did my two injections in record time and then I iced the injection sites again for 15 mins or so and surprisingly, tonight I did not get the dreaded Lupron headache.

I got the shock of my life tonight when I went to the store to get fitted for a new bra because NONE of my gorgeous bras fit since my miscarriage and I was spilling out of the ones I have. I knew that my breasts were porn-star status bigger than my usual 36C, but I almost fell out when the lady in the lingerie department told me I was now a 36….. DDD !  WTH?  WHAT the WHAT????? 

My name is NOT Pamela Anderson… I do not do DDD ! If they got THAT huge in that short of a time, what in the world will they look like after 40 weeks and then milk coming in?  I will have utters at that point !  Talk about a woman as nervous as a hooker in church !  LAUD !

Okay ladies, I will keep you updated !!   I go in for monitoring on Friday, then Monday, Wednesday and Friday of next week.  I am in Washington this week and next for my film premiere, so I made my monitoring appointments with a local hospital’s Radiology department and will do blood work at LabCorp.

#prayingmybreastsgobacktonormalsoIwontchokemybabies

IVF #2 Stim Day 1 – The 411

AND SO IT BEGINS…. AGAIN !

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This morning, I went in for blood work and a baseline transvaginal ultrasound (gross).  I have about 14+ tiny follicles, no cysts, a 3.something lining, and my blood work came back good.

I thought I would have one day before I become the human pin cushion, but nope… it starts tonight.

This cycle, since I am skipping the BCPs and Estrace, I take the Femera the first five days of the cycle.  I am taking 5 units of Lupron, Gonal-F 450 units, Menopur 150 units, Lovenox 30mg, Femera 10 mg a day, Prednisone, 5mg a day, my Synthroid , 1200 mg of vitamin D, Folic acid, and Prenatal Plus in the am and Innate Whole Food Prenatal vitamin at night. 

I am ready for this and surprisingly not nervous about mixing the meds nor sticking myself at all.

This is working out great because I will leave from my friend’s wedding and drive to Albany for my procedures.  I will have my team meet me there on the 25th to film the entire ordeal.  My producer is downstairs working on footage now that OWN has requested to incorporate into a reality series I have signed on to star on. 

Okay ladies, THIS IS IT ! (I just channeled Michael Jackson) lol.   Wish me a TON of sticky baby dust and send up prayers that THIS IS IT !!   #twinsorbust

 

 

 

Happy As A Pig In Slop – The 411

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I emailed my RE at CNY Fertility Center and Spa this morning and asked him if I would have to take Estrace orally at day 21 or birth control pills for a month, given that I developed cysts on my left ovaries on the count of Estrace last time, and he said I could skip the estrace and pills and he would go ahead and start me on stims as long as my baseline and blood work come back okay.  Hopefully I will have no cysts and my lining will look good and all my blood tests will read normal.

I am so happy about this, although now I am starting to fret.  I hope I get a bunch of healthy egg, healthy embryos , and they make it to day 5 !

After that, I worry about getting a BFP….. then I worry that I will go in for an ultrasound and get bad news that my babies are not growing… then I worry that I will make it to week 20 and go into labor because of an incompetent cervix…  I worry… I worry… I worry !

So then, I said to myself, ” SELF!”  and my self responds, ” HUH?”… Then I said, “Self, stop worrying about stuff you can not control and exercise some of that faith you have been preaching about !”  How is that your lips are not preaching the same sermon?” … Then my self said, ” Sure ur right !”   End of convo !    I pulled myself back together and decided that I will allow myself to be happy about this process.  I will not give into fear and I WILL TRUST GOD, no matter what !

Will let you all know how my baseline goes tomorrow morning… wish me luck !