I got the dreaded call from my fertility clinic this morning, as I knew was going to happen, this cycle is a bust ! None of the measly four eggs collected will fertilize with ICSI. The nurse said the embryologist will check them again tomorrow and attempt fertilization, as they may not be ready for ICSI just yet.
I have the sneaky suspicion that this cycle is just a bust. I have not had a good feeling about it since I started stimming. I have been in a crappy mood from the onset.
I do have one embryo that is frozen from the first cycle, but I do not want to transfer just one embryo. I want twins so I can be done ! If I transfer just one and it turns out the same as last time, it would be just as devastating.
My mom wants me to just go the donor egg route. I will wait and see what the embryologist says about the eggs they retrieved. I am now thinking that I need to go to CCRM or another center with a higher guarantee for advanced maternal age.
I would rather pay more money and have a competed cycle that keep paying less money for more cycles and have more heartbreak. CNY is a great clinic and they have had success with women in my age bracket, but after two failed cycles, I am not going to continue at the same clinic in hopes of a different outcome. Even with doing donor eggs, I do not want to take that risk, as the problem could very well be me. More later….