I am so freaking pissed I could cuss !  My beta this week? SEVEN !  Last week?  EIGHT !!  Week before that?  NINE !!  Ugh Ugh Ugh !!!

Why me Lord?  Why me???   I thought that by doing a D&C, things would return to normal after a month or so.  This is week SEVEN and my beta is SEVEN !  Okay, seven is my favorite number… means completion but I do not sense that right now.  I am angry.  I am pissed off.  I am mad as hell !   I want a ZERO beta so that I can move on with my life. 

No, I get a seven, off and on bleeding, dark brown gross spotting, and the wearing of thin pads, which I deplore !

I called my doctor’s office and asked the nurse if anything could be done to speed this up and of course, the answer is NO !  There is nothing they can prescribe to make this beta go down. I am so over this I do not know what to to !!