So, I started ordering my meds for IVF#2. I am ordering them in a few shipments so that my purse will not start screaming at me all at one time ! I, stupidly donated my meds to people after I got my BFP. Although it helped other women, now I have to purchase some of those expensive meds all over again and I am out-of-pocket. It is truly worth the expense. I will just take one vacation less this year. I planned to go somewhere tropical this summer… With two film premieres, one in DC and the other in LA in a few months, I have to watch my spending. I am doing these red carpet, celeb hosted premieres out of my own pocket and any money raised thru ticket sales, raffles and donations, I am donating to two recovery centers for persons struggling with addiction. My film is about addiction and recovery.
I am so ready for my period to start so that I can start stimming, but at the same time, I am glad my body is taking its sweet time so that it will completely heal. I am really pissed that I am not having a Christmas baby and that if this next IVF takes, my babies will be born in May. I did not want a May birthday ! My nephew was born in May and the family has birthdays in every month except December and January… I guess some things we just can not control. My body has truly pissed me OFF ! Then I dial it back and remember that God is in control of all of this and He knows so much more than I what the future holds and if he took those babies, my three embryos that I transferred, there was something going on that I could not see. I know what I asked Him for regarding my children and I know that what I asked Him for, He will give me !
So if it is Spring and Summer babies He wants for me, who am I to argue or complain?
I am also distressed because I have gained about 18-20 pounds with the ivf treatments, despite the fact that I walked 3-6 miles everyday and ate mostly veggies ! I have dropped 12 of the pounds but the fat that remains is in the most awful places… my THIGHS and my BREASTS ! UGH !!! I can not wait to have babies so I go under the knife and correct these atrocities… yes, I am that vain. I want my body back! Another thing men will never have to deal with, LOL.
Happy Fourth of July !!